Monday, February 27, 2012

IDSS: Drunken and alone.

I did something stupid... I think, maybe.

Well Friday night started as it normally does. Drinking at Token's place. 

Nothing came of it though, and I was solidly buzzed after drinking about 1/2 a liter of vodka in 2 drinks. Black Russians will fuck you up FYI. 

So What did I do? Did I do the responsible thing and go home? Nope. 

I went to the bar that is behind my house. This wouldn't normally be a bad idea, except I was alone and drunk. So I drank by myself at the bar and met some people. Including this really cool singer. He was black and looked like he stepped right out of New Orleans. I drank some with him and a couple of other people.

The bar closed and I was going to go home when I was invited over to an after party with some people I don't even know. I can't say no to that when I'm drunk apparently. 

Well I remember the first little bit where I played some foosball. Then I don't remember shit. 

I woke up in my own bed, alone. With all my organs and everything in my pockets. Cool. 

Then I go out to my car and it looks like it has been robbed. Except the doors are locked and nothing is missing. Just was solidly rummaged through. Apparently I was looking for something. I'm just happy I didn't decide to drive it anywhere. At least I don't think I drove anywhere.  

I'm going to say I was lucky. This is also a sign I may have a problem. I've known for a long time that alcoholism runs in my family. My own father warned me about it when I left the Mormon church.

I apparently don't know my limits like I thought I did.

I also paid the price for the rest of the weekend. I had that date/hangout with the Australian chick on Saturday and because I was so fucking hung over it didn't start till about 3 hours after it was supposed to. It was good anyway, I had a lot of fun.

I'm pretty sure we'll be great friends. Which is fine by me. Don't get my wrong she is fucking gorgeous and smart but she wants to make friends more than anything. She isn't looking for a boyfriend. Honestly as a traveler I can't really blame her. Token wants her too, he says game on and may the better man win her affections but I think I'm going to let her win this one and stick to being friends. If that makes sense.

I was supposed to go snowboarding with my sister on Sunday but she bailed on me. Well I wasn't that disappointed I was still recovering from whatever the fuck I ended up doing on Friday.

So far no lasting effects. I probably just was looking for a lost cigarette. Oh yea? did I tell you I am still smoking. Yea, I'm not impressed.

I will drink one day, and one day only in march and that is St. Patty's day. That day is a tradition. Other than that though I think I may have a dry month. Just to see if I can do it.

I have a couple things I want to talk about in a post rather soon. It involves a new writing opportunity.

Later Days,


  1. At least you're a responsible blackout drunk. I've learned the same thing about myself. Good for you!

  2. Other than the drinking yourself into oblivion, it seems like you've got your shit together. :)

  3. I stopped drinking for a year and half after an episode like that. Now I'm pretty freaking careful about drinking. It sucks when issues like that run in your family but it's a slippery slope. Glad you see it and are putting an end to it.

  4. Good luck on the sober month. I should really do this too. I worry about the alcoholism in my family and the amount I drink as well. I don't get black out drunk though. Not usually. I think =P

  5. The dry month will probably make you realize how much you enjoy it! I recently had to cut out drinking to study for this licensing exam...

    What I wouldn't have given to be able to drink on certain days.

  6. well at least you are conscious about the fact that alcoholism is in your family and you are making strategic decisions for your own health and life. good for you.


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